I have been in a whirl wind of rapid change within the last week and have not had a moment to stop and breathe, until now.
On Thursday, I said goodbye to my friends at Maranatha. The friends I made there this past year have become some of my favorite people in the world. The happy moment of the goodbye was gaining two fish when my water bottle was returned to me...until they died later that night, but that is besides the point. I could go on for hours on how much God blessed me through their friendships this summer. I miss all of them like crazy already. Right after, I headed home for a goodbye party for my best friend. It was refreshing to be reunited with my group of friends, but weird because people were already missing. I know many people are not able to say this, but I was blessed with an AMAZING group of friends in high school.
Friday, I spent the day starting to pack up my room which is not fun because I hate the long process of cleaning. I finished as quickly as I could and passed the approval of my parents.
Then...I finally did what I had been waiting so long for yet dreading. Rachel, Michal and I went to visit Mr. Looman's memorial. There is a tree planted in Millennium Park with a sign and his name. It has almost been four months since he was killed, but it still doesn't feel real. Us girls went to sit down by the lake which was located behind the tree. As we looked out at the water, we talked about all the memories we all held so dearly. Visiting was able to give me a sense of peace and bring me to a new place of healing.
Late afternoon on Friday, I was on my way to Tennessee with my best friend, her parents and cousin. I spent the weekend in Tennessee moving Rachel into college. We had talked about this for months, but it just didn't feel real. We were able to create many more memories like screaming in the hotel pool at night, horse riding through the woods, or just eating mac n cheese with hot dogs because we wanted it. Leaving her Saturday in her dorm was like a dream. I hugged her tight and tried not to cry because I had promised no tears. I turned around and walked out (of course the tears came then) as I was trying to comprehend what was happening. I know without a doubt Tennessee is the place for her. I see the love in her eyes. Knowing how she is going to succeed and impact people just like she has me there made it easier. Still selfishly, I wanted to grab her and just take her back to the car. I miss her, so, much.
More change. I am headed back out to Maranatha today to finish out the week of work, then I have a couple days off, then I move into college...LIKE WHAT?! Meeeppp, so much is happening!
The adjustment period of change has been hectic, but I wouldn't change the memories so far.
But, this girl is SO ready for college. Ready to pursue my dreams, grow in my faith, meet new people, create new memories, and maybe even fall in love (haha). I cannot wait to see where God takes me in this world. He helped me through the unimaginable and I know He is carrying me every step of the way.
So this is ME. I am HANNAH.These are my KNIGHT DAYS.
xoxo, Han
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